Now i know what it is like to have false hopes. Everytime i approached something, I would always try to control my expectations. I try not to hope too much, just in case i do not get it. It is some kind of protection that i created so as not to hurt myself.
I tried not to hope too much but he wouldn't let me. He was just so sweet. And everytime he said something nice, I thought things would happen though looking at the circumstances, it was deemed impossible. Still, I hoped.... I guess by now, ppl would be thinking i was talking about a love affair. Haha! Gosh, How i misdirected all of you.
Basically, it's like this. Remember in the last post, i was talking about a potential company that i might be doing my internship or working in? Well, I got to know this guy who was working there in a career fair and well, he was so helpful. He wanted to answer all my questions and troubles i had in getting into the company. He even called me to advice me about what i should do further!!! Now, call that dedication. And so i followed his advice, sent in my resume and wen he did receive the emails i sent which were mostly questions and all, he would reply with a great compliment or an email so sweet, i felt touched! I couldn't blame him la.... I mean he was a busy man and he wasn't working in HR, so he had to go on many business trips and meetings this month. Seriously, an application sent this late for an internship within this coming month would be close to impossible unless i'm superly outstanding!!! But i'm not, and so i'm still waiting for his reply, since he did say he was a man that will keep to his word and so i wait. But false hopes had been created. I was too excited. I shouldn't have and i hope I would not create such a delusional expectation next time! Why would he go all the way to get an internship for a stranger (me!) ???
And so that's why i'm bored!!! Another holidays spent in the four corners of my house! Not like i got nothing to do. I have a lot to do like household chores and also 'shop' work (family business). Same old same old. I just wanted a change you knoe. Another year of studies for me since i'm extending....
Bored, bored, bored!!!
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Your situation reminds me what i go through everyday.
I believe a cantonese phrase ''leng tak gou, fong tak tai'' (interpretation = like bring it high, bring it low).
I think it is not good to have low expectation on something as it would result low motivation, low enthusiasm and negative attitude which are widely so-called success of life.
So, i think it better to have a high realistic expectation, BUT if something go awry, let it go easily.
Life moves on.
Words sound more easy than actions in reality.
But try practice what we preach.
Practice makes perfect.
Man, i also job-hunting and post-graduate-hunting at the same time.
The misery of staying at home unproductively for months during after my STPM really haunt me.
Good luck lah......
Wow, shilin i learnt a good lesson here. Now i know what goes on the mind of a girl that i "accidently" treat very well. No wonder there are a few girls acting strangly after i helped them out with something...maybe i was a little bit too helpful? Is this also considered playing with their feelings? :P
Hell yeah, muhaimin. Good intentions can sometimes evoke misconceptions. So be careful ya....
Not that i hav fallen in 'like' with this guy but i got disappointed la. He din go all the way when he helped me. I shouldn't have expected too much but his encouragement was overwhelming or else misinterpreted so you also should not encourage some girl too much la.
I see...well i always don't put too high expectation to anyone. In Fact i don't really have any expectation to anybody that i newly meet. In that way, when they do something for me, i will really appreciate it and have pleasant surprise feeling...make life more interesting. They say,"life is full of surprises"...well might as well experience the surprise...
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