Guy best friend. Good idea or not!....

Besides the quest for a boyfriend, there is one thing i've always been in pursuit of: a best friend. Well, it's true after all these years in school, i haven't found someone i could really truly click with. I dunno... it's probably i'm choosy or else my interests are rather out of the ordinary....

I've spent most of my younger years being somewhat tomboyish. But, even then, i still look to finding best friends among the same sex. I did have one really close friend who was also a tomboy too but that lasted for four years until i shifted to another school.

The thing is, i can't help it to like 'guy' stuff though at most times i try not to be super fanatic over these interests. I'm an ardent sports fan. I used to be a wrestling fan but it got all 'soap drama', it's just not cool to watch anymore. Anyways I'm rather outdated already. It was pretty hot when there was The Rock.... and the ever famous Stone Cold Steve Austin, Undertaker, Mick Foley... the list goes on. And i was a F1 fan, until Mika Hakkinen left the arena, my heart left with him. I like to watch football too and still watching. I'm a Liverpool fan since Steve Mcmanaman was still there with Robbie Fowler. I seem to remember those days more then the Owen time...??? I wonder why? I used to watch NBA too especially when Michael Jordan was still alive! I can't help it if i'm easily influenced by my brother. (Though i do watch sports for the cute guys too.... that may not be true too, cos i like Ronaldinho.... -confused-)

There's also the music scene. I know i was a boy band listener but that was a phase. Well, it soon turned into rock and i went to the extreme. I remember my first fav band: Metallica. Haha! But soon i met a balance. When Linkin Park came out, I went crazy over them. I practically ate, sleep and dreamt about them. And now, there is My Chemical Romance. In the nutshell, rock is more of my thing and i like it.

And after stating all that, I'm rather reluctant to say that i like activities where I can feel the adrenaline rush. Roller coasters, horror films and any activities themed 'adventure', count me in! I'm so up to it. And, i eat just anything and as a matter of fact in large quantities (if not because i'm trying to diet and lose weight now).

Truthfully i'm pretty rough around the edges. Even though i'm trying to be more feminine now, just to attract the guys, in actual fact, I'm not all that. All this while, I've been trying to find a girl who can share these same interests and also one more important thing, share the same wavelength as me which is really quite hard to find. A girlfriend of mine once said that i don't really think or sometimes act like most girls. Damn...

After writing this blog, i have come to realized that, no wonder i can't get a boyfriend, what more a best friend. But a guy best friend, maybe that's a solution for me for not feeling oh so lonely and sometimes so outta place when i'm with the girls. Yet, I still tend to avoid the guys when i feel we get too close. I just do not want to experience the part where i fall for my best fren or he falls for me! I just don't trust myself or the guy. Too much drama.




Then again, i'm getting nowhere.